And from Connecticut….
Posted on 30. Oct, 2008 by Deb in Just.....Me, Just...Boys, Just...Traveling
I did want to share a few of my photos. These first two are of the amazing foliage. I felt so blessed to be a part of those crisp days and glorious colors.
And this is Gillette Castle. Which, in some ways looks like Fred and Wilma should live there 
And my favorite of my photos. Mystic Seaport. My photos, by the way, don’t hold a candle to the photos my friend took.
I’m really in the mood to go back. I liked the quiet and the graceful beauty. I also found myself very comfortable…and with a gypsy soul, sometimes, it’s hard to feel comfort when you are still….
I felt at home.
What I haven’t written about, though I have mentioned to those who follow me on Twitter, is that I went to see The Pilot Guy the week before I went to Connecticut. No, I haven’t talked much about it here - but the last couple of visits we had just didn’t make me feel as if I wanted to continue. He appealed and I agreed to try one more time to see…but all it did was confirm to me that my instinct (and conversation with him) weeks earlier to step away were right.
I finally realized that no amount of love and caring is going to work for someone who sees himself as unlovable. It’s something I can’t fix and it’s time I stop trying.
I’m thankful that I chose amazing guiding words for this year. The principals of Passion, Courage and Forgiveness are embedded as a part of my being now. It took a lot of courage to be honest with myself. It is still a struggle to forgive myself, though, because for so many years I was told the problems in a relationship were ME - and I realized that it wasn’t me…it was him…and us. I want to do things in my life with passion…and a lack of passion - in all honesty about most aspects of his life - isn’t someone I want to spend my time.
No matter how much love is there, sometimes, it just isn’t enough because you need something a little more.
