Deb Smouse

I try…try…try to follow good routines. My body wakes up around the same time every day - no matter how late I went to bed….or how early. But when it comes to true routines, that’s about the only thing I have on a consistent basis.

Of course, I have my travel rituals and routines - otherwise I wouldn’t survive the sheer volume. But when I am home, I have yet to settle in on a true schedule that seems to work as well as keep me motivated.

I think it’s the unpredictability of my business and the ebb and flow of my other projects. ATG, for example, has a big push every other month. I eat, sleep and breathe it…when I am home, once I get kiddos to school, it’s a matter of what is screaming at me.

Everything I read about being organized talks about how important routines are. I know from dealing with the ADD children in my life that they function better when they have a more solid schedule. I go through spells, of course….and it makes me feel like a bit of a failure that I can’t find the self discipline to get this for myself.

I used to be a structure person. I carried a more than full load in college (always 18 to 21 hours a semester -why I got my Bachelors in 3 1/2 years). When my children were younger, I worked full time, was a PTA officer, and still kept a daily blog and wrote other stuff. I would love to blame it on my hormones - but I was great at writing my erotic stuff after the hysterectomy -and the divorce.

The time of my double life was a lack of routine in many ways, I guess.  My inability to be honest with those around me affected my creativity.
Hmmm. How to fix it - and how to….overcome my own roadblocks. THAT is the question of the day…..  My life certainly isn’t really Doubled anymore….